a m i k a

work REALLY hard. and then escape to a party, and get d-d-drunk.

i dont wanna go to school. sometimes i want to be a housewife.i want to cook and clean, watch my stories, drink wine, be unappreciated, and silently weep in mourning of my hopes and dreams.

 because sometimes, UNIVERSITY SUCKS.

I’m tired of being overly-aware of my skin color. the negative stereotypes that have been systematically perpetrated, and that even in 2011, it feels that every good i do has been done DESPITE the color of my skin. I’m tired of the discourse that has surrounded by the color of my skin. Whenever i turn on the TV or watch a movie, all i see are these negative stereotypes, the horrible past that has been inflicted on my “race” by others. I refuse to watch another movie about segregated America. I want to get past only seeing myself..well the majority of the time, being reflected in the media  as a slave, or a gangster, or an overly fertile teenage girl. It makes it seem that even in 2011, black people haven’t done enough to eradicate these representations of ourselves. Why cant we be, that you watch blockbuster and see a black portrayed, as a person. not a black person. Why is it in movies when there are minorities in the lead, especially women, are always represented as “the asian love interest” or the “black love interest”, their color is always in the forefront of their perception, it has to be an integral part of the story of who they are. How many movies have you watched where the plot was centred around the fact that Anne Hathaway is a brunette, and that the color of her hair was significant to her character plot.

dont worry, I’ll wait.

There isnt any progress in my opinion, just varying levels of intensity. Only once we see all people, simply as people, and approach their phenotypical traits just as phenotyical traits, can i safely say we’ve progressed.